Flapped her wings at 07:58 PM
Just right after I put the phone down everything went dark.
Yes, after one year of deciding not to freak out of being absolutely single for a long long time this is the day that I.. YES.. absolutely broke down.. I felt sorry for myself and I felt alone...
I shed a tear.. sometimes i wish it wasn't more than that, but it was. I cried, and this time there's nothing but just my pillows to give me comfort.
But i think it's much better if we just laugh it off, don't you think? Thinking of it won't do any better and trying to solve it will just make it worse. I know that it's crazy talk, sometimes it's just really scary inside my head. It won't be me if it wasn't, better live with it.
I guess this is the day that I wish I was a drunkard!! Drunk, high and doesn't really care at the moment. (no offense) Never thought that school would get into my head this bad. I'm getting pressured. Soon, I'm going to finish and then what would happen next? Who knows right??? Sometimes I even surprise myself on the decisions that I make. There are days that I don't even know that I have it in me. It's just that I don't believe in myself that much...
I think I'm just going to get myself drowned in movies tonight, anyone out there who wants to talk with me or join me is most welcome.
Don't worry about me, it's all in a days work. I'm going to be fine it's just a matter of time.
Be safe!
What i really feel: alone